I decided that this year might be a good time to invest in the process of spiritual direction and see where that leads. I haven’t taken this route before, but I’m ready for some new paths. On Monday I met with Jennifer to talk about what I am hoping for and where I hope things might go.
I have been feeling lately that I have hit a bit of a ceiling when it comes to my relationship with God. Its like knowing there is more to be had, but not quite knowing how to access it – or maybe even how to describe it… knowing there is a world that I am yet to encounter. As I described what I was feeling on Monday I spoke of it as wanting to ‘step thru the wardrobe’. It was just an image that popped into my head as I was articulating what I was hoping for, but its stuck with me.
Do you remember Lucy’s face when she landed on the other side of the wardrobe? I want to say ‘wow’ again as I meet with God and I believe that is possible. I’m just not sure of how I get there on my own.
I feel like I could sit where I am now and ‘manage’ just fine for the rest of my life, but I also feel like I’d be settling for meat and potatoes when there is some beautiful food to be had.
I love an adventure and I feel like this might be the start of a new one so I’ll let you know where it heads.
We are leading our church in this direction too over the coming year so I’m hoping that others will want to step thru the wardrobe too and join me in a new and unfamiliar place… and say maybe get to say ‘wow…’ again…
Maybe time to see God at work outside of Australia?
In the UK we have some churches that support Bible translation projects in Africa and Asia. Some of them have visited the projects to build more personal relationships. The blessings both ways have been valued.
Just an idea.
I’ve been seeing a SD for a year and a half and it’s been a helpful experience. Being asked the awkward, uncomfortable questions within a relationship of support has been fantastic.
A great book to read is “The Critical Journey” by Janet O. Hagberg and Robert A. Guelich. From your blog posts a theme of growth comes through, which the book addresses. But it also looks at where many Christians and Churches are stuck, unable or unwilliing to go to a place that is messy and unclear, but ultimately fruitful.